When is Enough, Enough?

July 1, 2010 chellesvbur

For 6 months I’ve been hooked on this one guy. We went out, dated for 3 months but then he decided to be single and that was that. But usually after a break up people grief for it but then ultimately move on. We never did. We still have sex even though we broke up 3 months ago. We still see each every week and spend every weekend together. The worst part is he makes all these promises that if I wait we’ll get back together. His promises are now becoming empty. I’ve been such a fool lusting after him and enjoying the good times. Most of the time he insults me, winds me up about this other girl I don’t like. His now started using physical force on me and calls it ‘play fighting’ but I don’t call being strangled to the point I can’t breathe play fighting. He never compliments me unless we’re having sex. He always calls me gay or other names. Everything is always my fault, he never takes the blame for anything. He always makes me feel like I should be grateful that he gives me the time of day because no one else will. I can’t handle the emotional stress his putting me through but I’m never quite strong enough to leave. I feel like his the only guy that will have me because before him I was single for well over a year and I just want someone to want me, to like me. He knows this and he abuses it. Somehow I need to find strength to just walk away.